admin November 2nd, 2005
Dearest diary~
Wahahahaha!! I’m back from my finals!! [Translation: I back from hell!]
Life is beautifu-le~~!!
Feel soooo relaxed now~!
Can’t wait to have fun~!
Life’s only just begun~!
Ohh! Karen heard that I was always complaining about my old mobile phone (cell phone)… so she gave me one today as a congrats-for-finishing-your-exam gift!!
That’s so sweet!! I love my girls ^___^ I’m happy happy…!!
Plus I got a really sweet card from my close German friend, Julia… wahh, she’s so far away T_T…
Oh yeah… thanks for all those goodluckkers messages… and because my old mobile’s capacity sucked, I had to delete most your messages… your good intentions made me heartwarmed! <3
Man, during the past week, I’ve felt soooo many things…
Before the finals, of course… all those normal symptoms of “stress” and “anxiety” etc…
my first exam, I had cold feet (wtf?)…
second was a bit better etc…
next one I came out pissed and red faced…
the next one I came out beating myself…
the next was okay (finally, one normal one!!! But a little distorted and weird nonetheless)…
and then I had a panic attack (yes, a real one)…
and then my last one, today, was not too shitty~!
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Oh yeah, I did this subject my friend didn’t… she’s the “stressy stressy” one of the group… we were talking after chemistry…
Hana: How was English extension?
Me: Oh yeah, just great. Had a panic attack.
Hana: Oh, I get them everyday
Me: No, I mean a real one
Hana: Me too.
Frost (who sat the same exam and witnessed what happened): No, an actual panic attack…
-_- What’s the formulae for density?
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So yeahh! Apart from feeling that… it was all good… and it made me see the optimistic way of life… Turned a bad situation into a good one… =)
Oh god… to think I was sooo nihilistic and such an absurdist before…
I think it’s just a temporary thing [Translation: mood swings... pms... however the f*** you call it]
Ok now, so… it’s after-the-exam time… What’s up? I don’t know… feels weird to not be studying… feels like I’mma wastting my time… but what the heck, I worked for this moment…!!
I’mma bludging~!!! *sticks tongue out at my friends whom are still infected with this thing called “the hsc”* SUCKED IN!!!!!
Hehehee~!
Yours faithfully~