Birth of Mental Murmers
admin December 31st, 2007
Wow, there goes another year, passed just like that! Time really does pass quickly. I guess it’s time to think about this year’s resolution. So much to think about… random things already crossing my mind.
Alright then, here goes something:
1. To KEEP my new year’s resolution.
Because you know how it goes, nobody ever keep them. I’m no different. So this year, I’m making this my top priority (and that ensures the rest gets done)!
2. To update my Mental Murmur regularly.
I’ve always wanted to start a blog… and keep at it!! Have someplace to write all my thoughts, experiences, journeys, lessons, memories… recorded down in something solid (well, not really because this is the net…), the good times and the bad… just something for me to remind myself what I have gone through…
I said this many many many many times, but the blogs were all created in free sites such as livejournal, xanga and the like… and I find myself stopping after [insert a very smallish number here] months? -_- Oh well… When I’m bothered, I’ll take all the entries and compile some backtrack entries.
So anyway, here I am, my first steps to a memorable blog; my first own domain =] Wish me luck!!
3. To find happiness
During my high school years (only a few years ago), I’ve always been down for no particular reason. Well, none when I look back now. I don’t know why though, I had everything I need. Sure, I don’t get a lot of things I want, but the essentials were there: good health, good academic standing, great family, awesome friends and teachers, great living conditions (no chores, nothing)… there were nothing I had to worry about (what more could I ask for really?) Yet I was still very down.
Lately, I get these down moments far less frequently, which I am grateful for. I still don’t know why… could possibly be hormonal for all I know…
So this year forward, I want to follow Dalai Lama’s wise words (in “The Art of Happiness): something in the lines of making life’s purpose to find happiness (the book is in a box someplace, have to dig it out to find the actual quote… I found it!!! “…the very purpose of our life is happiness. the very motion of our life is toward happiness.” Dalai Lama). This is also another reason I’m here making this blog: to remind myself how lucky I am to be here with what I’ve got and of all the things in my life there is to be grateful for.
4. Not to waste spend money/time on useless things
I am shameful to say, but I have wasted SO.MUCH.TIME on nothing productive when I could have been sleeping more, helping out more, doing my assessments… >< I somehow managed an okay average for uni, but I’m sure it could have been better, even by a bit. But still, I’m glad I went alright.
And the other thing. I waste a lot a lot a lot of money =( though I have been selling some stuff on ebay… for quite cheap I must say but doesn’t matter because I have no need for those items). Well, my boyfriend Andrew says I don’t compared to many other people of the same age, but keep in mind I don’t have a permanent part time like everyone else around me. So yes, no more spending on useless things I have no need for, regardless of having a job or not!!
5. To look after my health!!
Three main things for this resolution: A fine balance of food, 3 days a week gym sessions and a minimum of eight six hours of sleep.
With food, I guess I’m pretty lucky because my dad takes care of my 3 meals every weekday, and they are pretty nice tasting and healthy with a good combination of the major food groups (though we don’t eat red meat in our family for religious purposes, hence my lack of iron-ness)… but looking at a body builder’s menu (I want to be cut…), I don’t think I can achieve that. Especially when my dad goes through so much effort of making the food for us… Maybe later when I move out and have to worry about what I eat everyday that I’ll start looking after what I eat. But for now, I’ll just stick to what I’m having.
Gym: I don’t have a problem with commitment to the gym, unlike many people I’ve talked to. So why have I stopped gymming for the past 2 months? People who asked me and have not the time to explain what happened will think I’ve been making up excuses for my lack of adherence to the program. But that’s not it.
Roughly 2 months ago, after I finished my exams, I went to the gym for a good workout only to find that the gym was to be closed for the day in 15 minutes. Fred, the gym owner, was really kind and let me work out for free during the 15 minutes. Andrew trained me really hard during that short period of time. Afterwards, I walked out into the sun and literally collapsed, feeling really light-headed and lethargic. Andrew caught me and surrounding people came to see what happened to me. Andrew, with help from a lovely lady named Barbara (I deeply thank her for her kindness), took me to his car and I stayed put there for a while before I was ready to go home. Apparently, my blood pressure was really low due to the time-of-the-month-thing and dehydration… Now whenever I think of the gym, I feel really insecured. Heck, I even feel insecured by doing everyday activities now. So one of this year’s resolution is to overcome this fear and head back to the gym and build some strength and muscles.
Sleep. Ahhh, that’s a hard one. I will aim for minimum of 6 hours of sleep because during the semester, I rarely get 6 hours of sleep and when things get busy, it gets worse. Like most people rushing their assignments/reports/studying for an exam, I pull all-nighters and look like a zombie the next few days… It’s really BAD! ><; I know this and I do it anyway… So so so baddd!!! 6 hours isn’t anything outside of reasonable. Oh, and sleep before 12 (if possible again…)!
6. To become a better person
I guess I can’t say “I haven’t kept any new year’s resolution” because I like to believe that I’m becoming a better person every year… And this last point (which is definitely NOT least) has always been on my new year’s resolution.
So yes, whatever I have become, I hope it was for the better.
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Phew! That was a long post! =] I guess I’m really motivated to keep this blog up afterall!
Please comment, any comment is welcomed =] I’d love to hear about your resolutions for 2008, or resolutions you have completed this year and prove the sterotyped comment wrong =] I’m sure you guys are better than I am at this!
Thank you for reading.
Anyway, time for me to make some wontons~ Mm mmm! Yummy!
Wishing you all a happy new year’s eve!!
Signing off, Anita.
