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BSc Adv. Sci., year 3, semester 1

admin June 27th, 2008

So it’s officially the holidays now for this poor old uni student… Let’s have a little recap of my whole semester.

Where to start? I guess at the uttermost beginning?

Well, it has been quite a tough semester for me (tension headaches, lack of appetite, lack of sleep, exhaustion), and I know I’m not the only one because my friends have been pretty stressed out themselves (2 threw up… stress-induced).

Ok, scratch tough, it was HELL! And that doesn’t even begin to describe it! No exaggeration. Usually I love studying, it has been hard but nowhere, nowhere, nowhere near this!!

Let’s see… let’s start with changes that occurred to the uni itself this semester:

  • 14 week semester has been reduced to 12 weeks
    Implication: same amount of work in less amount of time, which is crazy mad for us… we have at least something major due or a quiz/exam/test each week! The average for me was 3 assessments a week…
    I had to miss out on a Porcupine Tree concert to study for the mid-semester exams (I had 3 that following week)… and anyone that know me well will know how important this was for me, how little I go out regardless, and how badly I broke down because I couldn’t make it! Their first tour in Australia, and they’ve been around for 20 years! But I’ve been convinced they’ll be back, someday soon.
  • Cutback on our STUVAC (study vacation)
    Was initially about a week, now checking my student diary consisted of a Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday - barely enough time to go through 4 full third year subjects!
  • Winter sessions taken away
    Implications: overloading (below).
  • BSc (Adv) and BMedSci WAM (weighted average mark) increased from 65 to 70
    A few of my friends from Bsc (Adv) and BMedSci who has a WAM below 70 received warning emails, informing them if they don’t increase their average, they will get dropped down to BSc… Ever since knowing the possibility of dropping down to BSc, I had been feeling the pressure more than ever!
    A BMedSci friend later told me that they have been told that changes have only been applied to newcomers, which relieved me for a bit before she told me that it mightn’t be the same for BSc (Adv)!! (Thanks so much.. ><)
  • Examination changes
    Here’s an excerpt of the email we received. But to sum up, we are having:

    • Shorter exam period
    • 3 exams per day schedule
    • Exams on Saturday
  • Mid-semester break between week 2 and 3
    After 3 months of break, having a uni break after the 2nd week of uni is rather… y’know. So after that is a period continuous studying for 10 weeks.
    BUT, this didn’t concern me as I had to attend lab 9 to 5 daily for bacteria and disease laboratory work (which I really enjoyed, don’t get me wrong! In fact, I thought it was the best part of the course!)

So that was already giving me a hard time. Ranting on, these were the things I found personally stressful for me:

  • Overloading
    As if four full subjects wasn’t enough on my plate, I (stupidly) decided to overload, another half subject (3UOC general education) instead of trying to do it in the summer session in case it spots get filled up since winter session has been taken away
  • My final exam timetable (5 exams in 7 days)
    • 13/06 MICR3041 (Immunology)
    • 16/06 BIOC3111 (Molecular biology of proteins)
    • 18/06 BIOC3261 (Molecular biology of nucleic acids: theory)
    • 18/06 MICR3081 (Bacteria and Disease)
    • 19/06 BIOC3261 (Molecular biology of nucleic acids: practical)
  • Changes towards the end of the final exams
    Full story here - but basically, I was a victim of 2 exam rescheduling:

    • 18/06 MICR3081 moved to 19/06
    • 19/06 BIOC3261 moved to 21/06

So there you have it, a summary of what I had gone through in the past 13-14 weeks. Don’t be discouraged from third year science after reading this because rest assured, people do survive from things like this… (just barely in my case)…

Hope all students enjoy their hard earned, much needed holidays!

End of HSC exams

admin November 2nd, 2005

Dearest diary~

Wahahahaha!! I’m back from my finals!! [Translation: I back from hell!]

Life is beautifu-le~~!!

Feel soooo relaxed now~!
Can’t wait to have fun~!
Life’s only just begun~!

Ohh! Karen heard that I was always complaining about my old mobile phone (cell phone)… so she gave me one today as a congrats-for-finishing-your-exam gift!!
That’s so sweet!! I love my girls ^___^ I’m happy happy…!!
Plus I got a really sweet card from my close German friend, Julia… wahh, she’s so far away T_T…

Oh yeah… thanks for all those goodluckkers messages… and because my old mobile’s capacity sucked, I had to delete most your messages… your good intentions made me heartwarmed! <3

Man, during the past week, I’ve felt soooo many things…

Before the finals, of course… all those normal symptoms of “stress” and “anxiety” etc…
my first exam, I had cold feet (wtf?)…
second was a bit better etc…
next one I came out pissed and red faced…
the next one I came out beating myself…
the next was okay (finally, one normal one!!! But a little distorted and weird nonetheless)…
and then I had a panic attack (yes, a real one)…
and then my last one, today, was not too shitty~!

***

Oh yeah, I did this subject my friend didn’t… she’s the “stressy stressy” one of the group… we were talking after chemistry…

Hana: How was English extension?
Me: Oh yeah, just great. Had a panic attack.
Hana: Oh, I get them everyday
Me: No, I mean a real one
Hana: Me too.
Frost (who sat the same exam and witnessed what happened): No, an actual panic attack…

-_- What’s the formulae for density?

***

So yeahh! Apart from feeling that… it was all good… and it made me see the optimistic way of life… Turned a bad situation into a good one… =)

Oh god… to think I was sooo nihilistic and such an absurdist before…
I think it’s just a temporary thing [Translation: mood swings… pms… however the f*** you call it]

Ok now, so… it’s after-the-exam time… What’s up? I don’t know… feels weird to not be studying… feels like I’mma wastting my time… but what the heck, I worked for this moment…!!

I’mma bludging~!!! *sticks tongue out at my friends whom are still infected with this thing called “the hsc”* SUCKED IN!!!!!

Hehehee~!

Yours faithfully~

Drunkard

admin May 29th, 2005

Anita says:
Cos I’m going out for a walk with mummy now ^^’

Hui says:
ok!! *smoooches*
have fun ne~

Anita says:
*bounces out and frenches Hui on the way*

Hui says:
*frenches back* have fun!! bai!!

***

Anita says:
not fun at all
i’m terrified
i went with my mum
it’s quite dark
and we couldn’t see properly
i saw a man
he was walking weird
and then i told mum to go
so we went
and that drunkard
yelled after us
we were running full blast
adrenaline rush
and he yelled and ran after us
it was so scary

Hui says:
0_0!

Anita says:
because it was in a park
in an isolated park
and then..
we just ran
and ran
my mum’s feet is bleeding (she was wearing weird shoes and she took it off to run)
i’m so tired
><

Hui says:
so you guys are safely home?

Anita says:
*nods*
*scared*